Haven

2012-01-26T17:47:00.001-06:00

Why can't I have civil and level-headed conversations with my dad anymore? T.TCan't discuss much without getting into a row. :X I mean, shallow and small talk is just fine.. but anything that could potentially put me to blame, he'll really hype it up and blow it out of proportion. I think this is why I'm so reluctant to talk to him about how my day/month/year/life *really* was/is. Fml. I know he's doing out of concern, but it's difficult to take and swallow without eliciting any retaliation.

Strangest feeling in the world

2012-01-09T10:47:00.000-06:00

I got three (perfectly good and nice, might I add.. T.T FML, seriously) teeth taken out today! T.T

I opted for local anesthesia as opposed to conscious sedation a.k.a what I did for my wisdom teeth extraction three years ago. They still gave me a bit of nitrous oxide (a.k.a laughing gas) before they numbed me up. I gotta say, the feeling is super strange. It's true that there are many planes of consciousness.. because once that nitrous oxide kicked in, I could feel my senses dulling out. It's a prolonged moment of falling asleep, if you will. It felt like I was just one blink away from being completely knocked out, suspended in that moment between being conscious and unconscious.

So, I had my eyes open, mildly aware of what was going on, yet not quite.. I could feel the needles, but again, the feeling is pretty muted - just a slight prick. Later on, when the actual excavating happened, it's like little to no pressure was even felt. Overall, just super strange! T.T It was all over and done with in twenty minutes. Crazy. And now I feel like I'm missing a chunk of my lower jaw, with gauze sticking out of my mouth (yes, very attractive, I know). Yeah, try drinking or even swallowing - it kinda sucks.

Sigh, the woes of having stupid teeth. Yay, braces. Do you sense my enthusiasm? I can barely contain it.

He can't be your everything.

2012-01-03T00:46:00.001-06:00

The more I see of the world and all it encompasses, the more I realize I don't know much about it.

But one thing I've learned is that it's important to be able to love yourself before you even try to love someone else. Because when you do love who you are, irregardless of the many factors and variables that life will inevitably hurl your way, you'll be able to withstand them, including heartbreak (among other things).

With young love, it's often too easy to give it your all, to give it everything you've got, because you've never been hurt, because you don't quite see where it's going, and you don't quite give a damn anyway. It's easy to think that the world revolves around him, that he is the sun in your solar system.

But what happens when he decides to depart from your orbit? Everything crumbles along with him. He brings away the light, the warmth, even gravity.

He can't be your everything,
because he shouldn't be.
No one person can or should be expected to be.

2011-12-18T23:12:00.000-06:00

Emotions and feelings are such strange things. When it boils down to it, they're mere chemicals, hormones, neurotransmitters and what-not washing over the brain.. why should it have any effect on our actions, thoughts, moods? Funny thing is, it's pretty much the deciding factor for a lot (if not all) the things we do. It's terrifying.

The reason why I'm even starting this post is because I feel like shit. Not quite sure why either. Is it a feeling born out of boredom? Idleness? Or loneliness? Could it be the very thought of ending up alone? Not knowing how to pinpoint it down is part of what makes it so frightening. Maybe it's just that time of the year again.. the jolly merry season of Christmas and New Year's. The time of the year when those very thoughts and feelings are amplified even more so.

Maybe it's time to blast the Christmas carols.

2011-11-23T13:33:00.001-06:00

Bad day is bad day. It only takes the falling of one domino to get shit all over the fan.
Gah, days like today make me loathe existing. (Seriously, I've had my run, when do I get to quit?) T.T

11.11.11

2011-11-11T19:30:00.001-06:00

All will be well ♪

Taking it one day at a time is really the only way to live without going completely bonkers.

2011-10-11T00:44:00.001-05:00

How dare you
Come bumbling into my life again
After leaving without hesitation
With not one word of farewell

How dare you
Send me a message out of the blue
Like it is the most natural thing in the world
Pretending there is no distance between us

How dare you
Give me a glimmer of hope
Then snatch it all away
Abandoning me right back at square one

How dare you
Cause my heart to skip a beat
Make me question my sanity
Whilst drowning out all sense and sensibility

How dare I
Ask anything of you
Think anything of it
When I'm clearly nothing much at all

Reality is Such a Bore Without You

2011-10-04T22:08:00.002-05:00

I just had what seemed to be a whole night's worth of dreams centering around one main theme, or should I say, one main person.

The dreams were of nothing elaborate or glamorous, they were just pleasant and nice.

I really need to jot these down, or else I can never seem to remember the details. Although, that might prove difficult in itself as my dreams seem to shift every few scenes. They were at once vivid yet vague, disjointed, unrelated, and all over the place.

The bits and pieces that do come to mind include my excitement at seeing you for the first time in what seemed like forever. You have changed; how you looked, how you dressed, even how you carry yourself. An interesting thing to note is that your smile is still how I remembered it to be.

The scene changes and we're just sitting and talking, about what I can't be sure. However, I can feel myself getting more and more upset about the topic. Eventually, I stand up to leave, and you just sit there. I storm away.

Cut to another dream sequence. We're facing each other, and you have one hand on my face. You let a grin escape and I think to myself how much you've changed. You tell me, "It's always been you,". And, I believe you.

It's all a blur before I end up poking you from behind, and just as I'm waiting for you to turn back and look at me, I am rudely interrupted by an annoying and distinctly familiar alarm.

Imagine my distaste and disappointment when I wake up only to discover that they were all just that - mere delusions, hallucinations conjured up by my subconscious just to tease. I didn't even get to see your face one last time.

Reality is such a bore without you.

2011-08-22T22:28:00.000-05:00

When I'm at my most vulnerable,
the first person that pops up in my mind,
is you.

Whenever I want to share something,
be it cool and awesome or the opposite,
I wish you were close by.

Oh whatever..

2011-07-03T23:08:00.000-05:00

I am feeling very blah.. very meh.. very bleh-whatever.

No motivation to do anything.. don't particularly fancy hanging out with anyone.. don't even have any desire to catch up with friends.

o.o

Not keeping up with Facebook.. don't care about my cellphone.. still keeping up with the Internet though.

x.x

I'm not bored. Hell no. I'm just very apathetic.. complacent..

=.=

2011-05-18T00:34:00.000-05:00

This sums up how I feel, I guess.. as close to it as I think anyway.

The lyrics are so amazingly written. :X

There's one way out and one way in
Back to the beginning
There's one way back to home again
To where I feel forgiven

What is this I feel, why is it so real
What am I to say

It's only love, it's only pain
It's only fear, that run through my veins
It's all the things you can't explain
That make us human

I am just an image of, something so much greater
I am just a picture frame, I am not the painter

Where do I begin, can I shed this skin
What is this I feel within

It's only love, it's only pain
It's only fear that runs through my veins
It's all the things you can't explain
That make us human

2011-05-17T22:16:00.000-05:00

I'm angry at the world today.. angry at God.. angry at all the unexplainable events and situations that surround life.

I know no one said it was going to be easy.. I know that damn well. But it doesn't make it any less difficult for me to accept the harsh and seemingly random cruelties that life just doles out.

I am just so overwhelmed with grief right now. And it's driving me to type up this severely incoherent.. rant, if you will.

Shaking my fist at the injustice of it all. Shaking my head at how unfair life is at times.

I don't even know if these are tears of sadness or of anger. Who would've thought that tears would dry out contact lenses, eh?

Are we meant to sit back and just accept it all without questioning anything? Are we supposed to just believe.. and trust that there is purpose and reason in the things that do happen? It's getting increasingly challenging me to do so with unwavering faith.

---
The world lost an incredible human being today. It is not often that one meets someone who is so genuinely kind, compassionate, generous, brilliant, yet incredibly down-to-earth. He is and will be much loved, missed, and remembered.

Gingko Leaves

2011-05-16T23:42:00.000-05:00

Gingko leaves in the sunlight. :)

Taken Summer 2010 at the Japanese Garden in Seattle, Washington.

Mere Mortals.

2011-04-25T20:50:00.002-05:00

"The more I see of the world, the more am I dissatisfied with it; and everyday confirms my belief of the inconsistency of all human characters, and of the little dependence that can be placed on the appearance of either merit or sense." - Elizabeth Bennett

The above quote resonates with me so much. On some days more so than others.. I would attempt to write something similar to the quote.. but I could never be so eloquent with my prose. Pride and Prejudice.. such a beautiful piece of literature. ♥

Anyway, being (relatively) young and naive makes me vulnerable to being idealistic.

Ideally, it would be nice to live in a world where I could practice basic trust with strangers..
Realistically though, I would probably be stabbed, mugged, and left for dead without any organs..

Ideally, we wouldn't judge anyone prematurely..
Realistically, we just do.. even if we try ever so hard not to..

Ideally, the theory behind Communism would work..
Realistically, obviously it doesn't.. *points to North Korea as living, breathing proof*

Ideally, we'd be perfect in every way..
Realistically, we're just human beings..

And it really does boil down to that. We're humans. Just humans.

2011-04-16T19:28:00.000-05:00

GAHHHH!

I don't even know why I'm so freaking frustrated! T___T

BAHHHH!

Now I am made to seem really unreasonable.. and a bit crazy. >__< And worse of all, PETTY!

GAWD I need to care less. I really need to stop caring so much. Especially about other people's feelings and shit. WHO CARES?! At the end of the day, WHO cares? NO ONE is who.

2011-04-03T21:20:00.002-05:00

It’s been quite a while
Since I’ve last heard from you
“How have you been?”, I want to ask
But I really mean, “Where in the world have you been?”

I hope the concern in my voice
Wrings up some guilt in you
I hope your conscience gives you hell
For making my thoughts center around you

I’ve missed you
Even if I hate to admit it
“I’ve noticed your absence,” I would say instead
To which you’d just laugh off

It’s been a rather long time
Since I’ve seen you; heard your voice
I wonder why I can’t seem to let go
Of what could have been

Sucker Punch - A Quick Review

2011-03-26T21:11:00.005-05:00

So, I went to see Sucker Punch with one of my good friends the other day. Haha. She’s been talking about it since she saw the trailer for it lord knows how many months ago!

I would say it was definitely entertaining. The graphics were very well done, it felt like a very well designed video game so much so that I thought it was based off of a video game. Not sure if that’s a good or bad thing. It was a hero and quest sort of plot line. Lots of battling sequences. Girls in tight clothes carrying weapons. Yes, it was pretty much a dude fest. I’m pretty sure we were the only girls in the theater. :P

On the downside, there was little to no character development. Acting was cheesy at times, but that could be from the lack of material to work with. Hardly any dialogue, now that I think about it, which was probably why the soundtrack stood out to me so much. The plot was rather predictable. Not that I anticipated any epiphanies or emotional revelations..

Pretty kickass soundtrack, I gotta say though. I’ve been replaying it on Youtube since I watched the movie. :D Who knew Emily Browning could sing - and pretty darn good too!

2011-03-26T02:35:00.001-05:00

Time can be such a scary thing.

It frightens me that drifting apart comes so naturally after a while. :’(

Maybe I’m just silly for not letting go.

2011-03-21T01:10:00.000-05:00

I'm not sure if it's because I'm a cynical and pessimistic person..
but I've realized that I really love sad and depressing songs!
I especially love heart-wrenching lyrics. T__T

I don't even know why, but those are the songs I tend to relate to and remember best! X__X

Recently, Adele's Rolling In The Deep is one such song~

Mind you, the song itself is pretty damn epic..
but check out some lines from the lyrics:

♪
The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all

Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hands
And you played it
To the beat
♪

2011-03-16T19:53:00.000-05:00

Wow, ten days sure pass by quick! >.>

I haven't blogged for ten days already.. so much for keeping this thing up! :(

I haven't said a word about the catastrophe that's stricken Japan.. because so much has been said already.

I've been praying and sending my thoughts..

The scenes and news are heartbreaking to read and hear about :'(

I saw this quote thingamajig and it resonated with me about the situation.

It went like this:

Pray that the living are well,
pray that the missing are found,
pray that the dead are at peace.

I heart Ron & Hermione

2011-03-03T20:33:00.000-06:00

hehe, too cute. :)

2011-03-03T20:26:00.004-06:00

Wow, astonishing! Give cowards anonymity and put them behind the safety of a glowing screen and a keyboard. Sit back and watch as they morph into ravenous hungry ghosts satiating their appetite - one hate comment at a time.

2011-03-03T18:18:00.002-06:00

Curse you, Apple!
For never failing to make me all greedy!
Gah, the iPad 2 is pretty neat. :X

2011-03-01T12:55:00.002-06:00

Omg it's March! D:

So Not An Early Morning Person

2011-02-25T13:06:00.002-06:00

Waking up before the sun rises SUCKS.

*this gif is SO appropriate. <3

I'm so not a morning person. u__u

I never thought I was so adversed to waking up at early hours of the morning..
but I guess I am.

Waking up as the sun rises or after the sun rises is fine with me though, it doesn't bother me as much.

It's something to do with getting up in the dark, methinks.

Me no likeys it. :P NO ME GUSTA.

Although, it does depend on why I'm up so early.
For instance, if I had to get up at the crack of dawn to go shopping/traveling, I might be very interested. :P
However, if it was to go work out/school. GAH.. :x I will be a lot less agreeable of a person. Just sayin'

2011-02-23T08:41:00.000-06:00

Is it bad that I often catch myself thinking of you, missing you..

even though I'm almost a hundred percent sure that I'm no where in your stream of consciousness.

:(

2011-02-22T12:45:00.000-06:00

Er, about that sudden change in temperature..

I'm glad to report that we're back in winter, full swing! u___u

We got dumped like 13 inches of that white stuff.

I spent an hour shoveling. =.=

On another note, I don't want to do homework! BLARGH! D:

2011-02-20T10:37:00.000-06:00

Oh crap.

So much for blogging every day eh.. =.=

I fail.

Anyway, I woke up, looked out the window, and thought it was Christmas.

We have been dumped with lots and lots of white stuff! o___o

Relentless. Winter is relentless!

Oh yeah, Happy Valentine's!

2011-02-14T17:40:00.000-06:00

I don't really "celebrate" Valentine's, per se.. I mean, I celebrate the notion of love, of course. :P

I'm not that heartless.

However, it's just another year of being all by my lonesome self. *sighs like emo nemo*

Haha, just kidding.

I love most of the people in my life. XP Well, the ones I choose to keep anyway.

2011-02-14T10:47:00.000-06:00

Watched The King's Speech with Hillary! :)

The King's Speech was awesome. The acting was so marvelous - Colin Firth and Geoffrey Rush were amazing! The pacing was well done, the music was splendid, the cinematography was stunning.. overall, I can see why it was nominated for Best Picture.

[Side note, the soundtrack is so lovely! Beautiful piano pieces <3]

Even though it revolved around the royalty, it felt very relateable. Maybe I should say, everyone could relate to the themes that were going on in the movie.

After the movie, we met up with Anh, Vika, and Donhua for dinner! It was so packed with people, and we were there around five! Valentine's Day celebrations, I suppose. :D Had fun chit chatting over din din. Ah~ if only every day were like this..

2011-02-13T12:00:00.000-06:00

It's Sunday! :D

And true to its name, it is indeed SUNNY out.

The weather has warmed up significantly.. it's practically tropical now. :P

It's 39 flipping degrees Fahrenheit! In other words, 4 fricking degrees Celsius!

Time to go out in shorts and flip-flops. ;p

Anyway..

I'm going out with my girlfriends later woot! ^___^

I'm excited to go watch The King's Speech! And then early dinner!

mushrooms are nom noms

2011-02-12T12:25:00.000-06:00

My lil sis told me this uber joke a few days ago. I feel compelled to share it now. :P
Get ready to laugh your jaw off..

Okay!

What did the girl mushroom say to the boy mushroom?

.........

She said, "I think you're a fun guy,"

.........

Get it? If you don't.. FAIL. :P

And when I said uber, I really meant uber lame. Oops, I probably should have clarified.

When Sara asked me, my answer was "Are you high?".. which I thought was pretty clever of me *shifty eyes* Sara's like, =.= "They're mushrooms, not shrooms!" Whatevah.

cringe cringe

2011-02-12T12:21:00.001-06:00

Call me thick-skinned.. but I think I actually enjoy *cringe cringe* reading through my own old blog entries *cringe cringe*

I find myself going "wtf am I talking about?!" every few blog posts.. because I write in such a fashion that it is not specific enough for me to recall exactly what happened.. in other words, I'm freaking vague. x___x So, I try to figure out what the hell was up.. it's all a sick game. Haha

Still, it's fun laughing at how dramatic and exaggerated my writing can be. :P

So now, in an effort to enjoy myself more, I think that I should probably blog more! Possibly, maybe daily?!
Yes, I shall make a conscious effort to let my brain spew out unnecessary thought processes here on my blog. :D It'll be a blast.

2011-02-10T21:46:00.000-06:00

I think my feelings and emotions are going to be my ultimate downfall.. :'(

I really, really need to learn how to keep myself in check. D:

I really, really, REALLY need to learn how to be emotionless.. to be rational.. to not let my feelings get in the way!

Why am I such an emo-nemo sometimes!? More often than not. Which is worrying.

Darren Criss is wuv

2011-02-10T09:04:00.001-06:00

I was so excited to find out that Darren Criss was going to be on Glee! :D

He's a piece of talent, he is. No doubt. Have you seen his Harry Potter parodies? In musical form? Genius.

Anyway..

Glee! <3

I think my favorite character is Blaine. O__O

HE IS EPIC. He melts my teeny tiny icy heart.. ;p

My teenage dream. *cough*

This was my 2010 Christmas song. XD

ALL his renditions blow me away~

He is sooooo cute ;p

*fangirling*

新年快樂!

2011-02-03T17:21:00.001-06:00

轉眼一年就這麼的過去了。。
在此祝福我親愛的大家新年快樂, 萬事如意! ♥ 嘻嘻~

Happy New Year, everyone~ <3

May the year of the Rabbit come in leaps of awesomeness. :P

Needless to say, Chinese New Year is the time of year when I'm feeling homesick the most. Not that I can complain at all.. I has my family here. And awesome food. It just gets me all nostalgic, that's all. Which subsequently tugs at my heartstrings.

2011-02-01T15:45:00.002-06:00

是你的就会是你的。缘分就是如此。

不是你的再勉强也没有用。

再多的付出，他也看不见，感受不到。

再多的努力也是白费力气而已。

对他再好也只是一厢情愿。

只能默默在一旁扮演小小的角色。

虽然很不甘心，虽然是硬着头皮，忍着眼泪。

也只能这样了，也只好这样了。

2011-01-19T23:56:00.000-06:00

Omg, I feel like the idiot of all idiots! T___T

I seriously am doubting my ability to think. It appears I don't have enough brain cells or something.. >.<

Omg, I showed up to the wrong lab time.. how much more embarrassing can it get!? I totally misread the days for lab and lecture. I feel nothing but shame. :(

I'm just going to crawl in a hole and die now. Seriously. T___T

2011-01-11T19:50:00.000-06:00

Something one should never do when one is hungry is... surf food blogs. T____T

I was doing that last night and it has spurred me to make Korean rice balls today!

:D

It was really easy and quite fun to make actually.

The hardest part of it all was dicing those carrot into itty bitty pieces! Phew~! All that cutting and dicing took about forty five freaking minutes D:

But I am glad to report that it was well worth the effort as the final product was nom nom noms yummeh! :)

2011-01-08T15:45:00.000-06:00

Being on holidays is seriously one of the BEST things ever! EVER! :D

I don't know how I will ever survive when the time comes and I have to *gasp* work.. :/ I envision a tough transition to not having a huge chunk of time off to do whatever my little heart wants every couple of months.

This winter break has been good. :) My soul really needed it. I was just so.. exhausted. So.. tired. Not physically.. but, mentally. I felt as if my insides were wrung out.. *shrugs* Maybe even close to having an identity crisis or breakdown thing. T___T

But I feel better now, I think.

2011-01-01T02:22:00.000-06:00

Oh hello there, 2011..

What a freaking creeper you are!

How the heck did you sneak up on me like that?! D:

Sigh.. it's been a year. ONE YEAR. Like every other year, it feels like I've done nothing with myself. Still drifting through this life.. all alone, to boot. ;P

Oh whatever shall I do with myself? SHRUGS.

I was just telling Eddie how I feel like I skipped the youth phase of my life altogether. It seems I've gone from child to old person. What did I do for New Year's? I chilled at home. Don't get me wrong, I love being at home. (Which is partly why it's sort of disturbing.. ;p) Had a bit of wine, watched some K-Drama, and called it a day. :D

I'm not falling for new year's resolutions. Why? Simply because I shall not set myself up for failure. T__T

All I want for 2011 is to be certain of a few things. I hate living in uncertainty. It's downright miserable.

Wow, I'm going to turn 21 this year. It's some freaking scary shit. D:

Please.

2010-12-27T11:15:00.000-06:00

This.
Whatever this is.
Has to stop.
Before I go mad.

I've cried too many tears already.
I'm tired, I've had enough.
I hold no blame, no grudges.
I just want to let go.

2010-12-20T23:10:00.000-06:00

Okay, I think I'm going to go cross-eyed if I read any more...

Alas, I shall prevail... damn exam. DAMN YOU TO THE DEPTHS OF INFERNO! GRR!

O__o o__O

Goodness, this winter break is a hard one to earn.

*wallows and writhes in self-pity*

2010-12-19T22:28:00.000-06:00

Oh wow, what a way to cap off my wondrous weekend.

D:

I got a B+ for my 10 page research paper. Wtf.

I have lost all faith in my writing abilities.

D:

Oh the hours I spent on that piece of bs.

If it was because of formatting.. please, please, just shoot me now (with a marshmallow gun, that is. I'm not suicidal).

ARGH *pulls out hair*

2010-12-19T14:20:00.000-06:00

RAWR!

I am so freaking frustrated! T______T

Finals will be the death of me. After killing me, they will bring me back just to kill me again.

I'm at the brink of tearing my scalp off my head. Seriously.

Do not be shocked if you see me without hair. Or a face.

Goodness.

Winter break, you're really making me beg this time, eh?

Well, here ya go, I'm groveling. X__X

*deeeeep breath*

Musings before midnight

2010-12-05T23:36:00.000-06:00

I'm so terrified of making wrong decisions, mistakes, bad choices.. so fearful that I think I live for all the wrong reasons..

Sigh. I sincerely hope every step I take and every step that I take back will eventually bring me to where I'm meant to go.

I keep telling myself to take life one day at a time, but it's getting harder and harder to ignore the pressing weight on my shoulders, that dark cloud looming above my head, and the nagging I hear in the back of my skull. :(

Sigh. I know that everybody has their own life.. and with that comes their own trials and hardships. It's difficult to keep that in mind when their lives seem so close to perfection. From the outside looking in that is.

Looks, wealth, connections, brains, talent.. check, check, and check. I know they probably did work for it all, but still, that green-eyed monster can't help but rear its ugly head. Ah greed, I am so guilty of it. :(

Proof that winter is here.

2010-12-01T15:57:00.000-06:00

Other than the obvious "Blimey, it's effing cold!"...

It's also started snowing! Further proof that we're no longer in summer.. sigh, b-b-but I sooo wanted to wear flip-flops! :P

Anywho, my blog's been a wall of words.. so, checks outs my artsy fartsy shot:

:D Hehe. I'm pretty happy with it.

Anyhow, I am currently paying the fruits of my laborious procrastinating. Fml. Ten page research paper due very soon.. *flexes fingers* Time to crank up the bs. :P

Thanksgiving

2010-11-25T23:38:00.000-06:00

I do realize that..

It is much too easy to temporarily disregard and neglect those we hold dear to our hearts.. it is much too easy to take our many blessings for granted.. it is much too easy to complain and whine about what we *don't* have.. and it is much too easy for us to forget all that we *do* have.

Especially on days like Thanksgiving, I am made vividly aware of just how truly blessed I am.

Ingrate I am not, for a day or two - at least. :P

Impending Doom Awaits

2010-11-23T09:49:00.000-06:00

I'm doomed, so doomed, so very very doomed. :/

Argh *rips out scalp*

Just let me take this test (and hopefully not flunk it?!) and let me get on with my life! O.O

Fml.

2010-11-22T17:25:00.001-06:00

AH, I hate it when I study and study yet feel like nothing has been absorbed. T__T Fml fml maximus.

2010-11-22T09:49:00.002-06:00

Is it wrong for me to feel no motivation whatsoever to study for my huge exam tomorrow? :S

Brain slump I am in. x__x

Harry Freakin' Potter!

2010-11-17T18:03:00.000-06:00

I am so excited to go see the latest Harry Potter movie! So. Bloody. Excited! :D

My obsession with Harry Potter is a very healthy one.. :) It totally is.

I feel like I've grown up with the books and the movies.. it was such a big part of my childhood. XD Ah~ childhood bliss. I credit my love for the English language partly to the Harry Potter series. I remember when I used to reread the books multiple times, and I'd find something different to love about it every time. :D

I think I'm fairly sensible when it comes to handling my "obsessions". I don't think I have ever gone too far or too crazy. I'm definitely not one of those crazed fan girly types that you have to fend off.. and I'm definitely not one of those crazed fan girls who think that they'll marry [insert current object of obsession].

I'm realistic like that. :P

But, I will try my best to convert you.. muhaha. Or at least talk about it non-stop. :P

AHHH ONLY ONE MORE DAY! :D

Yes, I do realize that this post is allll ovvverrr the place. Incoherency ftw!

I MADE OREOS! :D

2010-11-11T16:16:00.004-06:00

In an effort to procrastinate as much as humanly possible..

I neglected my ever growing pile of obligations..

And... I baked.

XD I'm more of a chef.. :D I like the whole "eyeballing" and "estimating" part of cooking. If you know me, you'd know I never bake. It's shocking that I've only baked, what, two times in my whole life.Rather embarrassing too, actually. :P

I think my indifference about reading and following recipes to the T, coupled with my irrational fear of using the oven has been holding me back.

However, today, I baked! :D With the help of mommy dearest, of course (much to her chagrin and dismay.. because she ends up doing most of the work, it must be her biggest annoyance.. me deciding on an impulse to bake, that is).

We had a minor mishap involving chunks of butter flying around for a split second. It was a good laugh-out-loud moment, and lol we did. :)

Anyhow, I tried making homemade Oreos! Mostly because, 1) I love Oreos, and, 2) I was drooling over a food blog all last night..

The cookie dough was noms! Which was a good sign of what was to come! :) And sure enough, the cookies turned out pretty damn delicious, albeit asymmetrical. ♥

I didn't bother with the filling because I really am not a fan of it. I scrape off the cream filling when I'm eating regular Oreos, I kid you not. I cannot fathom eating the double stuffing ones.. they're nasty!

On another baking related note, the culinary genius that is my mom (haha yes, she's widely recognized in our circle as such) made macarons the other day! Good lord, it was so scrumptious I almost cried. It didn't have the filling (because stupid me didn't print out the filling recipe.. and thoroughly confused my poor madre) and it wasn't perfect in the least.. but it was ALREADY so damn yummy, I cannot wait to eat a perfect one. :D

That time of the year again..

2010-11-06T11:11:00.001-05:00

Sad day. Possibly flunked a test on my birthday. :(

If this is what my twenties will be like from here on out, I wanna go back! T__T Pwease?

That aside, birthday's been great so far.. :D

All the birthday wishes made me feel a bit more loved than usual. :P

Had yummy Korean food for lunch with wonderful girlfriends.. then spent an afternoon at the Minneapolis Institutes of Art, it was steeped in art and culture (aiseh). :P

Would've gone ktv-ing if it weren't for the fact that I had to do some major cramming for this morning's test. x.x Joy~

New Music Playlist!

2010-10-25T18:16:00.002-05:00

Omo! :) I has compiled a new music playlist! :D

Woots!

So yeah, check it out! (not that you have much of a choice in the matter, since I did set it on autoplay :P)

It's epic music, I swear!

2010-10-20T00:38:00.000-05:00

SOOOOOOO EPICLY TIRED.

In other news, I feel like such a bitch sometimes. :( What the fuck is wrong with me?

ARGH! Am I incapable of forming and maintaining human relationships or something? T_T

2010-10-14T12:36:00.000-05:00

Temper Trap tonight Temper Trap tonight Temper Trap tonight yo!

Eeeep, I am sho excited! :D :D :D

Haven't been to a concert since Michael Buble earlier this year. XD

Omo! It'll be so fun! Am going with Anh, Hillary, Sara, and Vika! :)

I'll be sure to take pictas! Heee~

Epicly tired. :(

2010-10-12T18:18:00.000-05:00

Boo hoo my poor fried brain.

Brain dead :/

So many tests and assignments and assorted shit.

Just got done with three tests, I have some more quizzes this week, and then I have a 2 page proposal paper to write by tonight.. :(

Fml.

At least there's Glee tonight! :DDD Not missing that unless absolutely necessary.. like in an emergency evacuation situation.. maybe. ;P

Chills.

2010-10-06T16:35:00.000-05:00

Glee. :)

Gosh, last night's episode (Grilled Cheesus) gave me chills. CHILLS, I say. Lea Michele's voice is so pure, so clear, and this one song she did just sent chills down my spine. Hats off to her, seriously.

Another Ren Fest! (and I shall pay for the consequences.. again.. will I ever learn? Probably not)

2010-10-05T07:36:00.002-05:00

Die, died, dead. :(

So many assignments/tests/wtf coming up!

However, I couldn't resist temptation and went to the Minnesota Renaissance Fest with my friends last Saturday. And let me say this, it was epicker (not a word, I know) than the Des Moines one. Apparently, the Minnesotan is one of the biggest Ren Fests in the States! I visited the Ren Fest three years ago, I think.. but dang, I feel it's so different this time around. *shrugs*

It was so picturesque~ Exaggerated even more so by the fact that it's fall now. :) Foliage = prettyful!

#1: Love the bright colors! :)

#2: My attempt at an artistic shot.

I got a gigantico (it's like the size of my face.. and my face is the size of Jupiter, so yea..) turkey leggo! D: For only six dollahs! Best value for money.. everything else at these fests are uber pricey for a cheapo like moi! :P

#3: LOL, this picture makes me~

I didn't take too many pictures, sadly. :( I think amidst freezing off my fingers and toes, I forgot. :( Well, there's always next year! :D

#4: Just one of the few super cute dogs at the Fest! :D

#5: Llama! Alpacas are cuter, imho.

#6: Ah so fairytale/storybook-y :)

Yeah, I spent a lot of time oohing and ahhing at a lot of things like the noob that I am. :D

Ah, abrupt ending! 'coz I gotta head out to class. XD

Renaissance Festival (and... now I suffer the dire consequences)

2010-09-14T20:27:00.005-05:00

Aiyo I am sooo tired and sleepy and tired.. did I say I was tired? No? Oh here goes, I am freaking tired!

And to top it off, I have a huge headache. Headachy ache. Huhu. :(

I have not had any good sleep for the past four nights.

I have dark circles the size of black holes. :S Very attractive, I must say.

Oh, I tagged along on a short road trip with some friends to the Des Moines Renaissance Festival over the weekend.

Haven't posted any pictures in uber long! So here are a few:

#1: Moi, Vika-Ish, and Hill-Han

#2 We are practicing the fine art of posing ala Asians! :D

Let's just say, I'm not too big a fan of camping.

Had lots of fun.. but now, I shall have to pay for the dire consequences.

Had quite a few adventures. Hahaha. :D We hiked in the rain and mud.. in the creep dark veil of night. Makings of a horror movie, definitely. Got lost in the car a little more than a few times. Had lots of heart-to-hearts in the car. Discussed and debated music tastes. :)

Bloody hell... so much crappy assignments to do!

*screams and proceeds to pull hair out*

*phew*

Good thing I have Michael Buble to chillax to. :))

*calms down a little*

2010-09-10T12:51:00.001-05:00

Three months ago, I paid little to no attention to the K-Pop scene..

and today, a huge chunk of playlist is made up of those damn catchy K-Pop tunes!

:D

My, my.

Blame Taeyang's Wedding Dress.. that one got me addicted and curious.. ;p

Once you explore, you're hooked..

*hypnotized*

2010-09-07T23:10:00.000-05:00

I feel sort of overwhelmed right now...

... and it's only the first day...

I hope this is just me being all stupid and crazy for fretting so much.

>.<

*breathes in, breathes out in a calm fashion*

Panic.

2010-09-06T22:26:00.000-05:00

Omg omg omg... summer is officially done, gone, in the past! D:

And I am facing a whole new semester..

Omg omg omg... the panic is finally settling in as it should!

I wouldn't be as nervous... usually. But holy moly, I just realized that I'll be taking not one, not two, but freaking THREE online classes! D: Impending doom awaits. :O :O :O

I have never ever done any online classes ever... because, I have no faith in myself. Do you know just how easily distracted I am when I am sitting in front the computer? And to be honest, I LIKE going to class.. I LIKE the whole traditional classroom setting! I like seeing people, faces, and holding physical pieces of paper in my hands! It may be just because that's what I'm used to..

But, I have no effing choice. :( :( :(

Wish me luck. I'm writing down all my class times and will pretend that they're normal classes! D:

*continues panicking!*

2010-09-06T15:10:00.001-05:00

Damnit! There are sooo many concerts I wanna go to! T_____T

I wish I was staying in Minneapolis/St. Paul instead.. :(

In the next few months, there's gonna be:
Zee Avi, The Temper Trap, One Republic, and The Script!

All of whom I really really wanna see perform live! T____T

I already missed Lady Gaga's concert the other day.. but that was pricey! So I could've lived not going..

I checked ticket prices for Zee Avi and The Temper Trap and they're only twelve effing dollars! That's the price of going to see a 3D movie here! >.< That's the price of going to see a regular movie in the cities! Isn't that ridiculously cheap?

And both are performing at First Avenue! Awesome venue because it's small and intimate! So, you can actually SEE the people on stage! D: Scary concept eh? I know because I've been to First Avenue before, for the Katy Perry concert many moons ago.

By the way, Zee Avi.. is amazing! :D So if you have never heard of her before, do yourself a favor and get on it. :) She's from Malaysia and sings awesomely folksy tunes. You've probably heard of a The Temper Trap song before and not know it.. they sing "Sweet Disposition", which is featured on a few movies and some commercials. :)

ALL IN ALL... there's so many crap I want. Will my greed ever be satiated?

No. T___T 'fraid not.

MMM~

2010-09-01T22:17:00.002-05:00

Do you know what rocks?

The magical combination of:

Mango + Sticky Rice + Coconut Milk

:O SUPER OMFG YUMMY! BLISS~

Dumbassery

2010-08-30T15:59:00.001-05:00

Sigh, I am so amazed/appalled/disgusted with my own dumbass-ery sometimes! x_x

Haih, long and uninteresting story. If I tell you, you sure think I'm an epic fail one. So yeah, save what's left of my face.. :P

Seriously lo. Why do I always have to learn things the hard way?! Getting quite annoyed with myself. >.<

I salute people who can stand me on a day to day basis. *salutes* I admire your courage/patience/compassion. :) I don't think I could do the same for anyone. :P

Why art thou so perfect?

2010-08-23T13:12:00.000-05:00

"一個我需要夢想需要方向需要眼淚
更需要一個人來點亮天的黑
我已經無能為力無法抗拒無路可退
這無聲的夜現在的我需要人陪"

Isn't that freaking beautifully written? *sighs*

Damn, I want his new album! Actually, I want all his albums.. actually, I want him, ship him my way, kthnxbai! :D
Wang Lee Hom oh Wang Lee Hom, you bring out the fangirl in me! :P
He is perfection personified, seriously. ♥♥♥

2010-08-23T10:55:00.002-05:00

Ladies and gentlemen,

I believe I have achieved closure..

2010-08-18T00:15:00.002-05:00

I'm curious to know..

Why do old wounds hurt more than fresh cuts?

:( I is sad.

2010-08-10T00:44:00.000-05:00

I wanna be a billionaire so freaking bad... ;p

Lalala.

Actually, I'll be quite content with being a millionaire. :) So, please.. heavens above, fairies in the woods, leprechauns hanging around rainbows.. please do not hesitate to bestow upon me such gifts of monetary value.

I'll appreciate it from the depths of my tiny heart, kthxbai!

I am stupid enough.

2010-08-03T12:36:00.000-05:00

You know when I said I'm not stupid enough to waste my time feeling feelings for you..

Well, guess what? I am stupid enough.

2010-07-31T16:33:00.000-05:00

Alienating people is what I do. Consciously or not, I'm not quite sure yet. However, it remains a fact that I do do it. I have an uncanny knack at it, it seems. :S

2010-07-15T11:20:00.002-05:00

It hurts to know I'm not good enough. :(

And, probably might never be good enough. :(

2010-07-10T11:35:00.000-05:00

I'm feeling so loved right now. :)

Just got the care package from my so-cute-can-die fwens! ♥

Totally made my week la. :D

A big thank you to May, Eddie :) summore with unexpected guest appearances from KM and Jia Wern. Hahaha the cards made me smile big big. :))))

2010-07-07T14:22:00.000-05:00

Rawr.

I'm so hot tempered these days. Wtf.

People get on my nerves.

Rawr.

2010-07-04T14:13:00.001-05:00

ARGH

I'm so effing pissed right now.

PISSED. OFF.

Bloody PMS (haha excuse the pun) is not helping the cause. >.<

Leaving Civilization

2010-06-26T14:05:00.000-05:00

I am going away...

To a land...

Where there will be no internets... no indoor potty...

Where animals roam free... and bugs are aplenty...

>.<

Don't miss me too much (I know you won't :P)!

2010-06-21T04:34:00.002-05:00

Just how messed up can my sleep schedule get?!

Omg it's four in the a.m. and here I am, still wide awake.. okay, wide awake may be an exaggeration. But I'm definitely coherent, still. Haha. Which is quite amazing, really.

Ah, summer's totally spoiling me - like it should. :P

2010-06-10T11:37:00.002-05:00

Memories are such unreliable things - so easily malleable and thwarted. Yet, that's all we've got, really. Which only further affirms life's fragility.

We literally spend our every waking minute building memories. A blow to the head, a concussion, a disease, sometimes, that's all it takes to snatch away all those treasured moments. Take away our very memories, and we are reduced to nothing. Mere shells of a life once had. Family, friends - those very words won't elicit any meaning anymore. What's even more frightening? We won't even recognize ourselves.

For some, it might be a relief. It will be a chance to start afresh. But then again, will one ever be able to have a completely clean slate? The past, whether or not one remembers it, is rarely so forgiving.
For others, it will be horrifying. I, me, myself - all words that were once familiar will become foreign. All those years of building up a self, an identity will be for naught.We'd be something akin to restless souls trapped in our own skin, lost and eager to break free.

Maybe that's why we yearn to keep track of these memories, any possible way we can. Isn't that why we keep intricately written, detailed diaries? Isn't that why we take pictures? Wanting to cement one moment and hold on to it before it all slips away? We struggle to delay the moment our brain tosses them into the discard pile, into the land of the forgotten past.

2010-06-08T23:17:00.001-05:00

I wanna go shopping! :S

Weather gone bonkers :/

2010-06-01T13:35:00.001-05:00

Ah~ why must it thunderstorm today? *pouts*

Any other day, I would be most thrilled to see it pour!

I totally had planned on biking to the library for my volunteering shift. >.< And now I guess I have to go for an alternative. :(

I have the best timing ever.

Pretentious bitches.

2010-05-30T00:00:00.000-05:00

Do you know what kinds of people irk me? (The answer is: many, many kinds.. but let's focus on one specific type for today, shall we? :P)

I'm talking about fakers. Gawd, hate those pretentious bitches.

You know who I'm referring to.. we've all had the misfortune to meet or know one.

It's the person who ignores you most of the time.. and only says "hi" when they want something from you. They make me sick. On normal days, they treat you like nothing more than a speck of dust particle in the air. On days that they need you, their vision will miraculously go back to 20/20 and they will magically grow tongues. It makes me sick, I tell you! Sick to the core of my being. (Drama much :P)

Seriously, I don't mind consistently mean people. At least, they don't do a 180 on you. At least they keep it real. At least, they treat me as an inferior all the time.

And what's sicker about fakers? They think they're so good at it too - good at the faking niceness business, that is. I mean, I wasn't exactly born yesterday. I can tell that you're not bipolar.. you're just a two-face bitch. They're so shameless sometimes I feel ashamed for them. Wtf.

Normal Day.
Me: Oh, hey!
Pretentious Bitch (abbreviated P.B. from now on): *walks past you without batting an eyelash*
Me: Oookaay.. *thinks "wtf" to myself*

Abnormal Day.
Me: *sees P.B.* *thinks "not gonna say hi" to myself*
P.B.: Oh, hey! How's it going? *smiles million dollar fake smile*
Me: O.O *speechless*
P.B: So, can you help me with bla-bla-bla.
Me: =.= *stares*

Yep. They should at least get some acting lessons. Seriously.

Burrrrn

2010-05-27T21:48:00.001-05:00

You know you're not very cool when people don't reply your messages/comments/statuses. Ouch, burn!
Even more so when they reply to other people's messages/comments/statuses.. and completely ignore yours. Major buuurrrn!

Way to make one feel insignificant. Never am I commenting again! >.<
Why must I be thus shunned? Huhu.

Er, tis a thingamabobber.

2010-05-27T12:54:00.002-05:00

"Come, I'll walk you home," he says to me, concern lingering in his voice.
I ignore him.
"It's raining..." he holds out an umbrella and follows me, shielding me from the rain.
I duck out from underneath the cover, letting the raindrops fall on me.
I hear him sigh behind me.
"Fine, take this then," he hands me the umbrella and hurries across the street before I could refuse him yet again.
I stare at the handle, unsure of this gesture of kindness.
I was tempted to squash the very show of genorisity, and throw the evidence of it on the ground.
I didn't though, I walked home with the umbrella in my hand, as if nothing was amiss.

As I was busy drying my hair, my glance went back to the soggy umbrella, sitting by my door.
"Damn it," I said aloud.
I made plans to leave it by his desk tomorrow.

I couldn't understand him. I couldn't understand why he bothered. Especially when I have been nothing but cold. Cold wasn't even the word. I was, quite frankly, a bitch.

My mind involuntarily flashed back to a scene I would rather just forget. He had the misfortune of having me as a lab partner. I kind of pitied him, I wasn't much of a team player.

"Here, I got a band-aid from the TA,"
"I'm fine. Let's just finish this experiment, I want to get out of here," I muttered.
I had my fingers wrapped around a small cut on my palm, plugging the wound.
I stared up at him and was surprised to be met with his eyes. He gawked at me as if I had slapped him.
"Why do you always assume the worst in people? And here, just take the stupid bandage." He said with a scowl on his face.
I was a little taken aback, I did not expect such an interrogation coming from him.
"Because they have never given me any reason to assume otherwise," I challenged. I still ignored the flesh-colored bandage he was holding out to me. He finally gave up and just placed the thing on my side of the counter.
He was trying to read me further, but it was too late, my face was back to being painted a nice neutral.

Somewhere along the line, I had stopped caring and started being indifferent. It made life simpler, less stressful. In doing so, I had forgotten how it feels like to care for someone else.

I was a coward, still am a coward. I play it safe, never daring to take risks. My comfort zone is my shell.

I would hold myself back, hold myself at a distance. I was deathly afraid of peering over my carefully built barrier. So fearful of putting myself out there, to form actual human relationships. I decided that temporary happiness was not worth a moment's vulnerability.

Thinking of him, the stubborn guy with the umbrella and the band-aid. My insides are at once, raw and numb, begging for relief yet unsure of where to start treating it.

Am I possibly feeling moved? Touched?

2010-05-24T21:49:00.000-05:00

Holy smokes!

I just got a mighty dose of Kuching weather today.. and boy, did I realize how much I do not miss it! x.x

It got up to the sticky high 90s .. and it was crazy humid!

I know, I know, I'm tofu to be complaining.. but it's true! Ah, almost melted on the pavement.. thank goodness for the nice (but warm) breezes.

Gonna go jump into a pool in my backyard now... I wish.. I wish indeed I had my own private pool. Haha. Gonna go do the next best thing instead, shower! :P

SUMMER! HERE ART THOU! XD

2010-05-13T16:48:00.000-05:00

Ah what is this sweet scent I smell?!

Must be summer! XD

Woootssss! I commence my three month long detoxing of the brain.. er, I mean, my three month long hiatus from classes..

Yay yay yay! *does the happy dance and twirls around*

And, I got that A in Microbiology! *continues prancing around* A very low A.. but wtf, I'll take it, most gladly! :D :D :D *delirious*

Stay the bloody awake, brain! Grr!

2010-05-08T21:56:00.000-05:00

Why does this happen the moment I lay my eyes on the textbook? My eyelids immediately feel like they weigh ten pounds!

Must I resort to propping toothpicks in between my eyes?!

Not bloody helping my studying (ahem, cramming) efforts at all. =.=

Here we go, last two Microbiology tests that will either let me keep or throw away my A. Here we go~ No pressure, yeah?

The Little Things: Little Thing #4

2010-05-05T01:01:00.000-05:00

#4: Finishing up my final paper for class three whole days before it is due! *pats self on back*

:) And I'm actually quite happy with said paper! Can't say the same for a lot of my other papers..

Le sigh, need to look for the little things to stay somewhat optimistic.. -.-

I'm emo. No need to judge. Just go away.

2010-05-04T23:51:00.001-05:00

I am feeling so uber crappy that even watching an all new episode of Glee tonight didn't cheer me up. =(

That's saying a lot. I love Glee.

I also love sleep. Something which I've been deprived of because of said feelings of shittiness.

FML. FML indeed.

!!!

2010-05-04T23:39:00.001-05:00

这不行, 那也不行, 该叫我怎么办啊！
真的快烦死了!
哎，还是撞墙死了算了.. X__X

*screams into pillow*

AHHH I AM SO RIDICULOUSLY FRUSTRATED/FED UP/TIRED OF IT ALL! BLOODY HELL! SPARE ME LAH, I BEG YOU!

*phew*

The Little Things: Little Thing #3

2010-05-04T14:44:00.000-05:00

#3: Self induced manicure and pedicure! :)

Haha I'm sucky at painting my own nails... not helpful at all since I'm crazy OCD about how smooth the nail polish should go on and how it should dry... and how there should never be chips and nips... and how if there were chips and nips, I'd have to repaint them all over again... but ah well! I guess the fumes have temporarily numbed my nerves. :P

2010-05-03T21:43:00.001-05:00

Goodness, I'm so bipolar these days. :/ Must not be good.

I really hate feeling sorry for myself.. but right now, as much as I hate to admit it, I do.. a little bit, a teeny bit.

Sigh.

Fuck it all.

♥ of all things Harry

2010-05-02T20:54:00.002-05:00

AHH I have just been reminded of my love for all things Harry Potter! :D Apparently it's Harry Potter Day today.. I didn't know this... but a few friends' status updates looked eeriely familiar! So I googled May 2th to see what it had to do with Harry Potter. Haha when in doubt, I run to Google! So anyways, I've done my part and put up a quote as my Facebook status update! Have you?

Being stressed and busy at this thing called life has temporarily put a lapse in priorities in life... I can't believe I've pushed Harry Potter to the back of my mind.. hahaha

I'm sad nobody shares this love of Harry Potter with me. *sad face* So, I have nobody to get excited over these things with.. le sigh sigh~

Which means I have to, have to, visit Harry Potter Land (neh, the tangible one, at Universal Studios!)... maybe that's where I'll find my soul mate, my one true love... Wtf wtf! But hey, most definitely a start, eh? Wtf

I think I'm going a tad bonkers. But hey, looney people tend to be happy! And that's what the general population strive to be, eh! :)))

2010-05-02T10:19:00.001-05:00

Why do I feel like I'm being thrown one hurdle after another?

Right after I've set my heart on one thing, something out of my control comes along and forces me to rethink it and possibly change it. =__=

Ah, fates and destinies, whatever the hell you are that's thwarting with me~ leave me be!

/Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars/ I really need a wish right now/

2010-04-28T02:09:00.000-05:00

I... am... so... sick... and... tired... of... school... already...
am... so... so... so... ready... for... my... holidays...

Still... so... much... crap... to... do...

=__=

2010-04-23T17:04:00.000-05:00

One thing I've learned today is that:

You can never be really sure. Of anything. Ever.

What do I do?

2010-04-23T16:58:00.000-05:00

I'm at my wit's end.

Tell me what am I supposed to do..
when I was determined to go through with Plan A, only to chicken out halfway and go down the road of Plan B.. until I was oh so sure Plan B wouldn't work out.. I make plans to go back on the route for Plan A, with a little more courage this time, talking myself into it, liking the idea of Plan A more and more, forgetting Plan B ever happened.. but lo and behold, Plan B wasn't so impossible after all.

Argh, life for the indecisive is hard. What should I do?

The Little Things: Little Thing #2

2010-04-22T15:28:00.003-05:00

#2. Going shopping. *smiles all around* :))))

2010-04-22T15:27:00.002-05:00

AHH!

Am heading into judgment week really, really soon! You know what I'm referring to, surely.. if you don't or are currently repressing the thought, then let me gently remind you.. *plays nostalgic music*

Judgement week aka finals are those last few weeks of school. Those very few weeks where you're supposed to finish and study for more than the whole semester's worth of assignments and tests combined.

Bloody hell, I have two Microbiology tests of epic proportions lined up back to back, the very tests that will either make or break my grade! And two huge papers for Ethics and Humanities! I shalllll persevere!

Damn, can I please forgo finals and just head straight into summer bliss? Pwetty pwease?